When it comes to how being on this diet affects you, I think for both you and I it is easy to forget you have only been doing this for two months. Your body is going through major changes, but it won't/can't change every day. The fast weight loss period is over, but you cannot let that get to you. Stess, good or bad affects weight loss. If things aren't going so well in life it will affect your weight. But, that is not what I think the problem is here. I think the excitement has waned as the weight loss has slowed and you are letting that affect your mood and by letting it fester, you are thinking that why bother, what could one restaurant meal hurt since my body is obviously not working with this diet any more. You need to look back at your dieting history. Is this the place you would normally quit? Probably. The initial big weight loss is lots of fun, but you knew all along it couldn't last forever. You need to take a hard reality check on your own thinking and stop mulling over how this has stopped working for you. Sorry to hear about your uncle.

Actually, this is the top of the slippery slope down. And I do NOT want to go there. Rather stay on the program....and not let the moods sway me so much. That is an area I am going to have to really focus on. Thinking this is an area I have to master in order to get the weight off and keep it off.

That is all part of the process Elisa. If dieting didn't have those slippery slopes none of us would ever be overweight. It is easy to be swayed in a process that has never proven that it can really work. Your fat brain is working overtime right now to convince you that this was it, that this first 50 pounds was a fluke and that going further is not possible. It has its little claws in your brain and is working hard to burrow in and make the idea a true belief. You have to fight hard to not allow this to happen. Recongizing that this is a hard spot. Knowing you are not superwoman when it comes to dieting and that yes, you too can be tripped by a few slow days, is important in building life-long maintenance techniques. You were on a high, and now like all highs, you have crashed. But it will not last long. Your body will find its balance. Right now it is just trying to figure out what that is going to be. Stay strong. Make sure when you feel like you are struggling to go to the Need Help Now forum and ask for help. Many times just asking offers that added piece of strength to keep you on your program.

this is my third attempt to post this.....grrr I keep getting knocked off! weight the same food for wednesday 1 banana, 4c strawberries, 3 c blackberries, 5 oranges, 3 c grapes, 3 cups spring mix calories 1217 fat 6.7 exercise for wednesday 70 mins walking 4 miles fbhr, but it was tough....felt like i was being dragged !! Water aerobics x 60 mins I am just home from the gym...feeling soooo tired, I am hoping to get some quiet time this afternoon....wishful thinking anyway!!

Lizz, where is the hemp in your diet?

I have a friend picking it up for me today,,,,,,,,,,, hope it gives me a kick!!

Either that kick will come from the hemp or from me!

I am a firm believer in pretending to the point that it becomes truth. I have a relative who is a habitual liar. After a couple years of his lies he believes them. That is how he got his BS in Engineering and went from a geek in the 60's to having gone to woodstock with Arlo Guthrie! It works for him For me, it is more a desire to be happy even when life tells me to be otherwise. I figure if I fake it, the smiles will not only release the endorphins but they will become real soon enough. Yours is not the only inconsistent body, but it is the fastest weight releaser here at camp, so...be happy, don't worry...

Yesterday's Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 260.75 Today's Loss: .25 Fit Day: 1171, 4.6 1 banana, 1 canteloupe, 2 c grapes, 3 grapefruit, 1 c blackberries, 1 pear Exercise: 60 walking x 2 fbhr

Yesterday was a pretty rough day with a good side. That math mess....completely finished and out of my life. Big sigh of relief. Was so tempted to go to a restaurant and celebrate....but, came home and rewarded myself with a nap...which was interrupted by no less than 4 different friends stopping by at different times who needed things. So was actually a good thing that I stayed home. Was bummed not losing so thought...pfft. Finished the math, going to reward self, I deserve it, but am glad I didn't because in addition to no gain today, got to see the friends who would have knocked and found me gone otherwise. The rest of the day....rotten. Simply put...rotten. Thrilled I had no SAD in my classroom and no cash on me because it was that bad of a day. Temper went from 0 to livid not once but twice (could have roasted a whole chicken with the steam coming out my ears)....very unusual for me. A couple of things REALLY pushed my buttons and I am still furious about it. Nothing I can do to change the situation....which makes the sense of helplessness compound the anger. None of it was kid related...they were all just fine. So, yeah. Anyway....stayed on program. Got extra minutes walking stomping down the hallways and then walking out of of work to cool off. That took a solid hour. My heart rate was accelerated before started but was moving it and drenched when came back on campus for my last class. So, not sure how much was mad racing heart and how much was exercise. Do know it was get away or mouth would start writing checks backside couldn't cash... so the exercise was a benefit. Still sore today because stomped the entire time. End of the school day, my uncle passed away. I will be gone Friday through the weekend. Not sure if will have internet or not. Where going, no phone service so highly doubtful internet unless something has changed since May (think middle of nowhere with oil pumps, cattle, cacti, and barbed wire). I'll check in in the morning and then whenever I get back.

215.5 weight food..........wasnt able to get all the calories in today, had stomach issues all day, feeling chilled and a little achey 2c strawberries, 1 banana, 2 c pineapple 4 c spinach made into a smoothie, 5 grapefruit calories 958 fat 6.2 exercise for tuesday 60 mins walking at track, zumba step 60 mins...came home and died!!! in the PM, I did some stretching exercises in the hot tub. Not feeling well did go to the gym today, stomach still feeling queeesy!! But I have been eating Darn ladies have been passing around a cold. I dont feel like I am getting a cold, but am feeling worn out. Will try to get some extra rest today! back to work for now We took a bunch of pics today, I will get them downloaded later, have a great day! Will go to get hemp seed tomorrow after the gym!

I just realized this is the least amount I have ever weighed in many many years! Even as a teenager I weighed 250 pounds! I keep catching myself in the mirror once in awhile...have to double take!! Its really ME 40 pounds gone since coming back to boot camp! Thank you Carlene!!

any suggestions for itchy skin? ever use the dry brushing remedy? I am going crazy tonight !!!!

It sounds to me like you are in detox. Try the dry brushing. When I was young I would get poison ivy every year. I didn't even have to touch it, just the oils in the air were enough for me to catch it. I learned young, that a nice quick slap did more for an itch than scratching. The sharp sting stopped the itch for a while and made my life more bearable. If it is detox it should go away in another day or two. If it is the pool chemicals you are going to have to come up with a better way to wash them off after the pool. The smallest you have weighed in a long time? Congratulations. 40 pounds gone is a lot of weight for someone who thought they couldn't lose any more. That double take is fun isn't it. Get some rest. Detox usually lasts about 4 days. You've already survived 2.

Most people who had lost 50 pounds in 2 months would be very thrilled and grateful to their bodies for releasing so much weight so fast instead of getting frustrated after a couple days of slow loss and even a gain. You have to ask your body to fogive you for being so hard on her.

Good point. My body has been very responsive in its own warped wacky way. Not particularly easy to find the pattern...heck, I don't think there IS a pattern other than eventual loss, but like mentioned previously, I never have been too good with consistency. Why would my body start something new at this late date? Looking at pics again. Yep....body has done good. Just a bad case of the doldrums that is really not weight (or school) related. Pasting on a fake smile . Did you know a fake smile released endorphins just like a real one? If you don't mean it, do it anyway. Might just stick.

Yesterday's Weight: 261 Today's Weight: 261 Today's Loss: 0 Fit Day: 1171, 4.6 1 canteloupe, 2 c grapes, .25 c prunes, 3 grapefruit, 1 banana, 1 c strawberries, 1 c blackberries, 1 pear Exercise: 45 walking x 2 fbhr Discussion Topic: alive and kicking

weight 216 food from monday: 5 oranges, 1 banana, 3 c grapes, 2c cilantro, 2 c parsley 1 lemon, 4 grapefruit calories 1188 fat 4.5 exercise Gym walking 60 mins, 60 mins water aerobics, 30 min abb workout feeling yucky with upset stomach today.........I only have hemp oil. Is there an easier way to get it in? What is considered a serving? My bottle says 1 Tablespoon is a serving worth 20 gr of fat....ugh!!!! I dont think I can do a T of that! I will look for the seed saturday when I teach at the Health food store! my skin is itching almost like it did waaay back when I was in detox??? Weird? Probably the pool chemicals. Also been having some thigh cramping...so maybe I am needing some extra something! I will look into the hemp........thx for your suggestions. I will do whatever you think YES I am a goof! I want this BAD...and good grief ...not sure how much more I can push this body! I am feeling a bit discouraged when I work so hard and get such slow results!~ BUT....nothing will get in my way! I will respect your suggestions always!

Get the crushed hemp seed. It is much better and is not 100% fat like oil. It also is great on a salad. I am such a fan of hemp. It is so pack with amino proteins, so for the cost of fat and calories you get a bang for you buck which is so not true for most fatty foods. Detox doesn't just happen once. It happens every couple of months as your body releases more and more fat, it also has more toxins to deal with. Of course if you aren't scrubbing all that chlorine off your body every day that could be causing the itch as well. You are doing well. Make sure you do the weigh in chart every day. You tend to slack on that. Other than that I have no complaints so get out the gloom and let's focus on getting you to your goal. I think the hemp will be good for you. You don't eat many greens, so you do need to get protein into your body.

You made my morning!

How did it go with putting the treadmill together or whatever equipment it was you brought home?

Well, my living room is covered in parts and pieces. I gave up last night and finished my homework. Figured I would tackle it this afternoon again. Thinking the hardest part is going to be the assembley. I should know when it says....some assembley required, it is NOT a good thing. Grin, but, I will perservere and it will be done by this weekend by hook or by crook. Thinking if can get it together, may try the all in one walk first thing in the am since can just stick on my socks and tennis and hit the thing rather than having to get dressed and go out to freeze off my backside with a flashlight. Blech. Talk about motivation to figure out how to slip tab A into slot B. grin.

LOL! Good luck with that!

Yesterday's Weight: 260 Today's Weight: 261 Today's Loss: -1 Fit Day: 11184, 4.1 1 canteloupe, 2 c grapes, .25 c prunes, 3 grapefruit, 1 banana, 1 c pineapple, 1 pear Exercise: 45 walking, 60 walking, (yep, fbhr) 10 hooping (nope, is start and stop) Discussion Topic: Well, here we go again. Getting a bit discouraged.....so, have enlisted a friend who is going to go walking with me starting today after school. Weight had stalled out now going the other way. Friend is taller than me so she makes me really MOVE when we walk together. So, going to focus on the fact that have someone to walk with and get my rump MOVING rather than the fact I don't like where the scale is movine. Shrug, at least I'm smaller (by lots) than this time two months ago. But darn it, darn it, darn it. Ok, moving on. And walker not put together yet. Hmmmm. Oh man, if I have to learn how to remove all stress from my life and meditate to lose weight......

I just got home....had a fun time... weighed on my scale..vs my sons I weigh 216 loss 1.5 food for sat 4c spinach, 1 banana, 1c pineapple, 3c spring mix, 1c mushrooms, 1c tomato, 3c grapes,3 c blackberries, 5 grapefruit calores 1137 fat 5.7 exercise for sat, 60 mins walking at outdoor track near sons house, 30 mins row machine, 20 mins wii boxing 2x's sunday 3 oranges, 4 grapefruits, 3c watermelon, 4c strawberries, 1 banana, 3c kale calories 1128 fat 6.6 exercise walking 60 mins outdoors it was cold and hard to maintain fbhr 20 mins wii boxing (its hard) 2'xs sons row machine x 25 mins Carlene...I am trying as hard as I can...not losing fast is the story of my life, When i first went raw, I lost 25 pounds the first month then 4-5 per week... until I started starving myself by not getting in enough calories. Thats why I came back to boot camp.........tell me what else to do. I am at the gym 5 days a week 2-3 hours a pop, at home I never sit still. I have been trying to up my calories as you said. When I talk to the gym trainer they think I am not eating enough still and want me to increase my exercise to include weight trainer(to burn more fat) ...They do respect my rules of Boot Camp but still dont get it about how we get our protein through greens... BUT again...respect what I am doing! I can say everyone I know has been making comments about how much thinner I look. I have had to buy new underwear and bras...........my new size 16/18 jeans are falling off of me and all my dress clothes for class and church just hang on me. SO, I am sorry if I am disappointing you ........I would never purposely do that. I am exercising right along with the SKINNY people and keeping up. Even in zumba step I am keeping up. Surprising the heck out of myself...but also proud that I stuck with it. This is definitely something I would have never considered before going raw. Exercise was NOT part of my vocabulary! I am most willing to do whatever you suggest! feeling bad that I am disappointing you